Lying Mirror, Truthful Eyes (Original Poem)

Eyes are a
Blueberries kiss,
An oceans touch,
A sky's rays.

Lips are a
Strawberries sweetness,
A clouds whisper,
A gentle lullaby.

Some people tell me things
That's others dare not to.
Tellings of truth, belief,
And beauty.

What they know
to be true,
Is what I think to be
A lie, a fairytale.

My mirror reflects a
Different image
Than their magnificent
Crystal eyes

What they tell me
Is nothing less
Than what I already
Think to be true.

My belief of what they says about me 
will never be 100%
But over time,
I will learn acceptance.

I will learn to accept
The present,
Forget and move on from my past,
And looking into my bright future

For I cannot change who I am,
And the only way
To truly keep going, is to 
Forgive, forget, learn, and move on.

I do not really wish to write anymore about this poem or explain it, I think that there is no reason for that. I hope you enjoyed this poem!

Sammie <3

Shower (Original Poem)

The fiery dragon weeps 
the hot tears 
that are the warmth to my 
isolated body. 

They disintegrated at the 
touch of my skin and 
fall off my fingertips 
leaving a trail of their past. 

My mind and my body are in 
two different worlds. 
My body experiencing the 
warmth of the waterfall, 
and my mind connecting the 
memory of pain to the 
heat on my body that is 
welcoming yet 
unforgivable.

This is another original poem I wrote a while ago. I wasn't sure whether I should post it or not because I'm not to sure if it's good enough but nevertheless, I have decided to. The inspiration behind it is actually a shower. I have used some metaphors and connections in the poem. I literally did think of this as I was showering and from there I added more on about the feeling and what it was like. Hope you guys enjoy it! Leave a comment on what you think of it and what I could to to make it better, or if you just liked it. 

Sammie <3

I'm Fine (Original Poem)

There is always a lie,
a silent cry,
a call for help,
behind every
I'm fine.

The definition of fine
means everything ok.
It means that your cup is
full,
A little more than
Just ok.

But the word 'fine' itself,
is used as a
mask.
A shadow that covers up
the cracks in our hearts
from the lies and pain.

The hurt remains within us
when we say "i'm fine" and
don't mean it.
We lie to and keep that feeling to ourself.
Afraid of the world outside of
our personal bubble.

People are able to pop our bubble,
but we remain unable to
escape.
Unable to leave that feeling
of loneliness and sorrow.

It takes one word
to unlock our dark thoughts.
The things we tell other people
to ignore but
we can't get away from ourselves.

But the thing is that
it can be fine.
Everything could be
ok.
If we just opened up.

By sharing our
thoughts and feelings
we are taking the
first step into being
ok.

The first step starts with 
talking.
So we are able to say,
truthfully,
"I'm fine."

I wrote this poem because a lot of people have been saying that they are fine, when really they are not. They trying to hide their true feelings because they are afraid of being hurt and of being judged. But school and life is not a talent show where there is a winner for the best act. We cannot be afraid of our own feelings. We must face them, head on. The people that love us and care for us can help us, but only if we let them. Pushing people away and lying about how you feel will not change anything. It would only make it worse. By opening up, we are tackling our negative thoughts and troubles and doing something about them. For anyone reading this who is saying "I'm fine" when your not, talk to someone. Maybe a friend you trust. Just be open and, this is very cliche but, everything will get better. Just trust yourself and the people around you. 

Sammie <3

(P.S. I am ok, I didn't write this because I'm not, I wrote this for the people that aren't ok! I promise (: )

Poetry on the Way

Hey everyone!
I am just letting you know that I am starting to write poems in my free time. Some people (you know who you are) have already read one or two. I will be posting the one that I think are ok on my blog. I realized that expression through poetry can help us to figure things out and it's another way of thinking. Some of them might be a bit personal, but I am willing to share them. Poetry is creative and can be anything we want it to be. Anyone can write a great poem. I hope you like them :)

Sammie <3

Hard to Say Goodbye

One of the things I hate the most in life, is having to say goodbye. Having to say goodbye when you go away for holidays, saying goodbye to family after you visit them, having to say goodbye to the ones you love most. Thats something I have never had to do before. Never moved, always been in Singapore and UWC. As most of you know, I have been going to UWC since I was 4 years old, K1. I'm now 13, and in G7. I've had to say goodbye to people when they leave and I've watched people come and go from the school. But I have never been the one that has actually left everything they have ever know. UWC is the only school I have ever been to and I've lived in Singapore since I was 1 year of age. My home is here. And now being told that I am moving homes to a place where there is no uniforms, 4 seasons, only 2 or 3 classes in a grade and where everything is in Japanese, is a feeling I can't even put into words. 

Getting the news that I am moving to Japan, was one of the hardest things I have ever had to hear. Sure it in a way is exiting news, but i'm being told to leave everything I've ever know to go to a new place, a new school, and a new life. It's just something I have never had to do before. I don't want to have to leave my friends behind or my life. I love it here and it will take a long time to get used to the change. To be honest, it has been hard for me. I cried a couple of time because I just didn't know what else to do. I was upset and scared. But now I think it's just because i'm scared of adventuring in a new environment. I am scared of going to somewhere completely new and somewhere where I know nothing about. I know I will like Yokohama International School, but I will always love UWCSEA more. It is my home and the place I grew up, and where my education and knowledge has grown and developed. I love it here and I'm not ready to go yet. I always envisioned that I would stay at UWC until I was in G12, but that, however, is not the case at all. 

I love my life here and I'm happy. But now I have to try and find that same happiness again in a new school. I guess this post so far seems like a negative boo hoo type of post, but i'm speaking from my heart. But to be honest, I am slightly exited for it. It is a new place, new country, new people. I know I will enjoy it there no matter how much I miss life at UWC. I have decided that saying, acting, and just having a lightly better view of it helps in a way. The post is a step towards feeling better and getting over the fact that I am not staying here at UWC forever. There is soo much more I still want to say but I can't. Not yet anyways. 

Since this blog is registered with my school account, after I go I will no longer have access to it. So I will almost defiantly make a new blog and continue posting on that one.

I love my friends at UWC and I'm gonna miss you guys like crazy! I'm going to treasure all the moments and says I have left with you guys! There is only 4 months left before the end of the school year! 

Sammie <3

Word for the Future

My word for 2013 is passion. It is the one word that has been with me by my side in everything I do. There are different types of passion, but mine is the passion to do well in life, give back to the people that mean so much to me and that have made a huge impact on my life, and to do what I love. I only get involved in the things that I'm passionate about. 

The spider diagram above, the definiton there is not really the one I am talking about.

I'm passionate about helping the less fortunate and the service that I do. Without the passion that I have I wouldn't be able to go every year to stay and help in orphanages. The kids there inspire me to do my best and to love life. The kids mean so much to me. They have taught me soo much over the year and I have made deep connections that will stay with me for my entire life. Some of the kids there have been through so much that has made a huge impact on the rest of their life. But even after what they have been through, they are some of the most happiest and positive kids I have ever met in my life and that to me, is one of the best outlooks's and attitudes that someone can have on life. Seeing their faces and their expression when we arrive to come and see them, is what brings me back every single time and what makes me want to stay. Going and spending time with the kids and helping out in the orphanages is something that I have been doing since 4th grade and is something I am truly passionate about. 

Anything thing I'm passionate about is drama. I have been involved in drama since I was in grade 3 because it is something I truly enjoy. I feel so free when I am on stage, performing and entertaining people. I love the idea of pretending to be another character and to live another life for a little bit. And the best part about it is that I'm pretending to be someone else without  having to changing who I am as a person, I'm just acting. 

I believe that people should live with passion because with passion we can accomplish so much in life.  

Christmas Holiday Round-Up, Day 11

Day 11, December 25th 2012

Merry Christmas!

Christmas is finally here everyone! Hope you all had a amazing day full of joy and wonderful things! My sister, Tessa and my friend Caelan and I all got up before 7 ready to go downstairs and see what was under the Christmas tree. But the rule was we weren't allowed. So we waited 2 minutes until it was 7. Then we got all the parents up and the rest of the kids. We rushed downstairs to see what was underneath the tree. My family and Caelans family all unwrapped presents from Santa and from each other all together. One of the things I got was the new iPod Touch 5, neon yellow and a mustache case. When I got it I literally screamed because I was so exited to get one. My sister, brother and I all shared  an iPod Touch 4 before, but it got annoying sharing when your brother is 4 and is always wanting it. So my sister and I both got our own and my brother got the old one. But Christmas is not about the presents, it's about spending time with your family and friends. And thats exactly what my family and I did on Christmas day. We had a big Christmas lunch with friends that lasted 5 hours! It was great and I had a lot of fun! 

I hope you all had a great Christmas and photos are on their way!

One Direction Christmas!

Christmas Day Dress

Christmas Holiday Round-Up, Day 6 & 7

Day 6 & 7, December 20th/21st 2012

Hi everyone! So on the 20th I went out to Takashimaya to go and meet my Mum for Lunch. To get there I had to take the MRT, then walk to Takashimaya where I met my mum. We went to this really nice cafe that I forgot the name of. I had pumpkin soup with toast, my Mum had a lamb sandwich, and me went halvezies on coconut bread. It is amazing! Every time we go there, we order coconut bread. After that we went shopping for some Christmas prezzies. 

MRT Station

Waiting for the MRT looking amazingly tired

Colorful People

Orchard Road

Takashimaya

Later that day I went to a sleepover at one of my good friends place, Delphine. We went swimming, watched Pretty Little Liars, surfed the web, and more. I can't remember what we ate for dinner, but we did go to fair price and bought chips, chocolate, and some drinks. We ate some of that at a park nearby and saved the rest for the Pretty Little Liars marathon. I recently started watching the series and I totally love it! At some parts it can be really creepy and suspenseful but it is a great series if you like suspense and drama. We woke up a couple of minuets before 3:11 just so I could prove to her that the world IS NOT going to end yet and that there is no need to worry. We did survive to apocalypse. I think that the big fuss of the apparent end of the world was for nothing because it was highly unlikely to even happen. We fell straight back to sleep after that. In the morning we basically watched a couple more Pretty Little Lairs episodes and hung around.
For the rest of the day I didn't do really anything I think...

Anyway.....4 Days til Christmas!

Christmas Holiday Round-Up, Day 3

Day 3, December 17th 2012

So today was injection day! I hate injection. They hurt, a lot and to express this i have made a vlog instead of writing about it. Watch it below!

Ok, so in the video I said I had nothing to do in the afternoon. Well, I decided to make pretzel! Yes you heard it right. Pretzels. It took a little longer than the book said it would, but they are delicious!

Making them look like pretzels

Cooking in the oven

FINISHED!

I hope you guys had a better start to your day then I did, 8 days till Christmas! Yay!

Christmas Holiday Round-Up, Day 2

Day 2, December 16th 2012

Today was a very relaxed day. I slept in until 11:30 and didn't get out of bed for another hour on top of that. I love sleeping in in the holidays. It's a chance to catch up on sleep and just relax. 

So today, specifically in the evening my family and I went round to some family friends house for dinner. We were there for about 5 hours and didn't get back home until late. On the right is a pic of the rest of the kids playing on the trampoline. The kids, me being the eldest, had lamb, rice, peas, and sushi for dinner. I love sushi because it is delicious and depending on what type of sushi, it can be healthy as well.  The lamb was beautifully cooked as well. The kids played for the rest of the evening and watched a movie called "Prancer". It is about one fo Santas reindeer that gets lost and a little girl finds him. That happens at about 20 min into the 1 and a half hour long movie. What happens in the rest of the movie is the reindeer is hidden by the girl in her dads shed, he doesn't know its there, he finds out, he sells it, the girl goes to get it back, she falls from a tree whilst trying to save the reindeer  people sing to her from her window, the reindeer goes back home to Santa. Thats basically the whole movie. 1 hour and a half. To be honest, it wasn't the best Christmas movie as you can probably see but I still had a great time at their house. 

Hope you guys are having a great start to the holidays and tomorrow is going to be and interesting day.......I'll keep you posted!

9 days till Christmas! Yay!

Christmas Holiday Round-Up, Day 1

Day 1, December 15th 2012


Hey Everyone! Hope you guys have a amazing holiday. So what I have decided to do, is do a Christmas Holiday Round-Up and post what I have been up to over the holidays. I'll start at day 1 and keep going until the end of the holidays. Wish you guys a Merry Christmas and may your Christmas be full of joy, family and friends, and fun. Hope you guys have a great holiday and a Happy New Year!

Wahoo! The Christmas holidays are finally here! Ok, so it's day 1 of the holidays, not much going on so far. Im staying in singapore this year instead of going home to N.Z. BUT I will still have an amazing holiday here with friends and family. So today wasn't really a action-packed day, but I still had fun. I spent the first half of my day basically doing nothing and some homework which was total fun.....ish. But as you can see, on the left is a pic of a Christmas tree and a whole-lot-of flying white things. Well those flying white things, they're all fake snow. My family and I went to Tanglin Mall to go and play around in the fake snow and by that I mean my brother and sister playing in the fake snow whilst my Mum, Dad and I watch and laugh from the side. Every year around Christmas time Tanglin Mall make and put up a Christmas tree. They put up a different tree and decorations every year, my family and I go nearly every year. It is a lot of fun and afterwards we drive down Orchard road to look at all the Christmas light. 




On the right is me standing in the middle of the falling fake snow. It was like a blizzard but a soapy blizzard. By the end of it, my shoes were covered in the 'snow' and so was my hair! But it was a lot of fun. 

So this is what I did on day 1 of the Christmas break. 

10 days till Christmas! Yay!

Where I'm From, an Original Poem

Where I’m From

I am from the spotlight,

from song lyrics and broadway.

I am from my obsession with One Direction

and their music that I connect with.

I am from the open fields and kiwi’s.

National anthems that speak the beauty of

         the country.

I am from 1 school just 3 different campuses

           that I can all call home.

I am from barbie dolls and

numerous numbers of skirts and dresses.

Walking down the stairs all dressed up,

pretending it was a fashion shows where I was the star.

I’d do this for hours with my friends.

I am from the baby blanket that was my company whilst I dreamt at night,

a old sarong and a stuffed monkey,

that I still sleep with every night.

They hold the memories of my childhood,

and the childhood i'm still living.

The memories that I sometimes forget because of the new ones

I gain every single day.

I am from horsey rides, piggy backs,

and the times spend riding shoulders.

I am from the artist, the principle, and the caregiver.

I am from beliefs and values that stay with me in all that I do.

I am from the blisters, bruises and scars representing

hard work, commitment, pain and strength.

the same blisters that remind me to keep going,

that remind me to work hard for what I want.

I am from the mental scar that reminds me of the day

where the truth was revealed, and the demon inside of him was uncovered.

I am from the replay of that day.

It haunts me like a shadow sometimes.

but it keeps me going.

I am from that memory that tell me to keep going

and that not everything is what it seems.

I am from a place where nothing is as bad as it seems.

I am from the constant belief that everything happens for a reason.

Good or bad, it happened for a reason.

I am from those time when you’d think the whole world

was against you and you had no way out.

Then I remembered all the amazing things in life

and how much people loved me and how much I loved them and life.

I am from love and lost.

Win some lose some.

I was from pink and now i'm from purple.

Both represent different things that are within me

and what I love doing.

I am from a loud, free, active, bouncy, upbeat, complicated, painful, amazing, fabulous

life and thats just my world and my life.

And it’s everything about me and my past

that makes me who I am and where I’m from.

I wrote this poem about myself and where I come from. It was inspired by the original “Where I’m From’ poem by George Ella Lyon. This poem is really about my life and the memories and experiences I have had over the years. It mostly focuses on what I did as a child and the games and experiences I had. What I did is I didn’t want to hide everything in the poem because otherwise the poem would make no sense if it didn’t have any clues as to the meaning. So I just wrote out the truth. But in some parts where it gets more personal and the parts that were a big part of my life, I was more protective over it. I used metaphors and link what I was trying to say to other things to say what I wanted without showing too much. Throughout the poem I share things that have happened over to me over the ears and the things that I believe in.

High Tea at the Shangri La

Saturday, 8th December 2012

12:30pm - 2:10pm

Last Saturday I went for High Tea, a fancy buffet, at the Shangri La hotel. The lunch was for my Mum, Sister (Tessa), myself, Auntie Ioana, Iosenja, and Maeischa. The lunch was to celebrate Christmas together before they go away for the holidays back to New Zealand. It was so we could get together and spend some time with each other. At the lunch we had fancy tea's and a lot of different food to choose from. It was delicious! 

Auntie Ioana, Iosenja, and Maeischa are not related to me in any way. We are just really close friends. I call her Auntie Ioana because that's just what I have always called her. She has known me since I was a baby. The girls, Iosenja and Maeischa, are 2 of my best friends. Iosenja is 12, same as me, and Maeischa is 10. All of us come from New Zealand. We have been having play dates and sleepovers for as long as I can remember. I know them well enough to call them family. Anyone that means something to me or is a close friend, is my family. Family is not just whose in your D.N.A. and whose in your blood. It is soo much more than that. 

 Family is anyone that cares for you and loves you. 

Always remember that.

Sammie <3

The Truth Behind a Name

Our parents give us our names when we are born. They don't know yet what we will be like, look like, or act like when we are older. But somehow, they always get it right. Our names grow on us as we grow up and start becoming who we are today. We are still growing. We are always growing and expanding our minds to new knowledge everyday. Our names are a part of us and are something that we keep forever. Something that can never part from us. 

(Here are some of the names of people I know)

My name, Sam, most of the time is referred to as a boys name. News flash! It's not. Sam is a name for both girls and boys. But Sam is not really a real name. It is normally short for Samantha or Samuel. But it isn't for me. My full name is Sam. I do not wish it was Samantha because to me, Samantha is a posh name. I am not posh. I know for a fact that I am a loud, bouncy, energetic, and that I'm not the girliest girl. But that doesn't mean I don't like nail polish and doing my hair :) 

So to be honest, Sam does count as a real name. There is no reason why it shouldn't.  I want to end on the note that we all are our own person, our own name. Even though some people have the same name as you, they are a completely different person. 

Sammie <3

Darker Sides Beauty

(I took this at Dairy Farm on my phone)

The sound of the jungle

creates its own music.

The whispers of the trees

define each note.

The melody of the jungle

speaks to me.

The humming of the tropical birds

complement the steady hiss

of the diamond headed snake.

The harmony comes from a much deeper part.

The roar of the lion completes

the single flap of a butterfly’s wings.

The motion is so silent,

I can hear a single drop of water

falling from a leaf’s edge.

By Sam Coutts

I wrote this poem whilst I was at dairy farm at the G.I.N. conference. We were told to take the 15 minutes to sit in the jungle, and just write, draw, and create whatever we wanted. Some choose  to lay down and listen to the sounds of the jungle, some drew what they could see. I choose to write a poem. This poem just came to me. I sat and listened to the sounds around me, and stared at the scenery around me. Inspiration can be anywhere, even in the least obvious places. After writing it at dairy farm, I took it back and made it better.

Staying True to Yourself

Little things is One Direction's newest song. The song was written by Ed Sheeran for them. The song is one of my favorite songs at the moment. It is sweet and 100% true. People like us, well SHOULD, for who we are and for our personality. Stuff like looks doesn't really matter. To me, what matters is personality and being true. Not pretending to be someone your not. I know I wouldn't want to be someone im not because then your not being who you really are. You are changing for someone else. So basically, stay true to yourself and don't change for other people. 

After watching this I want anyone and everyone who watched it to comment on their thoughts and how the video made you feel. 

Sammie <3

If You Love Someone, Let Them Know

"I love you". 3 simple words that can mean soo much.

When someone says I love you, it should come from the heart. To me, the heart is where your feelings come from. Ever heard 'listen to your heart, or listen to your heart not your head or follow your heart?' Well if you say something it should mean something. You can't sat I love you for no reason, you can but would it mean anything? No, not really to me. When I say 'it should mean something', I mean like it should send a message. If you were dared to say it, it doesn't matter because it probably didn't mean anything. 

Everyone loves their friends, not in the romantic type of way, but just as friends. They do soo much for us. A shoulder to cry on, support, sleepovers, shopping...and the list continues. The least we could do is thank them. All I know is good friends will always be their with you, to help you celebrate the best ties, and to be there for you when you cry. It doesn't matter how old they are, boy or girl, nationality, etc. All that matters is that they are there for you. I know I would die without my friends because they do soo much for me and support me with what every happens. Thats what good friends do. 

Back to the title, "If you love someone, let them know". Lets just start off by saying that what is the point in loving someone if they don't know that? Love is a powerful passion that brings people  people together. Without it, where would we be? I imagine a lot of broken hearts, sorrow, pain, more wars, and people alone. We can;t live our lives without it. No matter how small the love is. Telling someone you love them s a stepping stone across a river. That being the first step take in the relationship, the first stone placed. Over tie, more stones will get added. As more get added, the relationship becomes stronger, and you keep moving down that path, across the rover. I finish on that note, with my tittle.
"If You Love Someone, Let Them Know"

Sammie <3

Image Links:
http://www.mackenziewhitetrust.org/store/heart_joy/joy-heart.html

Our Script, Our Song

People tell their stories in different ways. Through art, song, dance, music, etc. Our stories are our past, experiences, our life. Our stories we share are a extension of us, in the fact that they share more about us and who we are. 

I found a quote that I think links to this perfectly, “May the bridges I burn light the way.” - Unknown. To me this means that we light our way, we may not be in control of our path, but we light it up. We make the connections and that we should light the way in our own way, may we make them our own.

I think that people are their own script, our own song. Our story, our script. We write what happens in our life and can add  and re-write things in. But sometimes we can't re-write or edit those things. Thats when we should light the way and make it our own. Try to make out something that is good or something you can learn from that experience. And afterwards, you may realize it was a good re-write. But life is our own. We have the power to make it, or break it. 

Song are a form of expression, they capture a specific moment or time. They express our feelings. Our love for one another, friends, family, hopes, dreams, It's all in their, in our story, in our song. I leave you wondering with what I have said. 

I would love it if you commented with your idea of telling your story. Thank you.

Sammie <3

Image Links:

genutsu.blogspot.com/2012/06/best-acting-school.html

http://genutsu.blogspot.com/2012/06/best-acting-school.htm

In the Spotlight

This is a vignette that I write in class and I wanted to share it on my blog. 

I feel like everyone has a chance, a chance to break free and go for our dreams. Everyone should be able to express their individuality without anyone or anything standing in there way. No one should ever feel like they are worthless and that their dreams could never become a reality. We have the choice to choose what we do with our life. What we do should be because we want to do it, not because we were pressured into it. Life's a gamble, you just have to take the chance when you have it. The world is your stage to take.  I’m waiting for my chance to break free and go for my dream. A chance to prove to the world what I could do and how I can change the world. I have been acting for nearly 5 years now. I love taking the stage and making it my own, I love performing. When I was in G6 at centre stage I was playing one of the main roles in the musical ‘HONK!’. I played drake. Yes a guy, but playing a character of the opposite gender is really good practice and is a lot of fun to do. For the role I was required to sing a solo, an entire song. I remember the feeling. I was nervous I would go off pitch, or that it didn’t sound right. But I really wanted to sing. Just sing my heart out and give it my all. The feeling. Amazing, ecstatic, and proud that I took the shot. I stay committed because it’s what I love doing. I  stay committed because I know that one day I will have my chance to show people what I can do, and what I could do. All it takes is one chance to prove to the world what you can do. The world is your stage to take. Don’t let an opportunity pass you by.

Sammie <3

First Inside

Hi Everyone!

This is my first post on my blog, The Performing Arts is Where I Belong. On my blog you will find more about me, my life, friends, family, trips, etc. I love music, Singing, ACTING, Dancing, and hanging out with friends. I have been acting since I was little. Acting is my passion. So this is a little about me, and my blog will have more on it as the year goes by. Thanks :)

Sammie <3